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My weight problem started when I was in highschool. Unlike many of the other girls who were a size eight, I was around a size sixteen (Australian Size). To add to this, I was also the most unpopular girl in school, and when I say this I truly mean it. I eventually did find a small group of friends, mostly rejects and other students nobody liked and I guess I should have been happy but the torment from the other students never ceased, I found it harder every day to go to school. Not only did I have a size seven Model spit on me every day but I also had guys torment me too. A day never went by when I wasn't called ugly, fat or something else horrible - I wished I was dead. My self confidense was non existant and I would walk with my head down, hoping no-one would notice me. My school work suffered too and my grades went from A's and B's to D's and F's. Family told me to ignore the teasing, that I was special and what the other students said was not worth listening to but it's hard to ignor when you think your the ugliest person in the school. The teachers were no better, not once did they step in to help but just sat back and laughed. This all might sound far fetched but I swear it's all true. I ended up leaving school in year ten and turned to one thing that would never put me down, one thing that would take away the pain - drugs. At 17, I was a heroin addict with a $100 a day habit. I paid for my addiction by selling drugs and selling anything I could get my hands on. This went on for about 4 years and during this time I plumeted to 45kg's, although, by this time I had other issues to think about. It wasn't until I turned 21 that I decided I had to get some help. I found a wonderful doctor and with hesitation finally made an appointment to see him. I was put on morphine and week by week My dose went down until I was finally off the drugs. It took me a while to settle back into society but I eventually did. I aslo found God and a wonderful man who is now my husband. I know a lot of this story doesn't seem to be related to being overweight but it is, I know now, if I hadn't been taunted so much at school. I would have never went down the wrong path. Unbeleavably i'm now told i'm gorgeous but sometimes find it hard to beleave, I guess the scars from highschool have never truly left me. In this world, personality doesn't seem to matter, If your fat your must be worthless. The reason I joined this sight is because after getting married, I started to put the weight back on. I never want to be fat again and have been on a diet now for three weeks. So far Ive lost four kilo's and am going well. My husband has also been very supportive. Social Butterfly

hi socialbutterfly! sounds as if your life has been challenging.congrats to you for your accomplishments so far. if you can overcome a heroin addiction, my guess is you can overcome anything! keep your goals in mind always, and they will easily be within your reach!

Hello SocialButterfly! You've decided to come out of your coccoon then?? Congratulations to you. It sounds as if things are turning around for you! You met your hubby online? That is weird how you met online and went to high school together.. what a small world!!

Hi SB! That is quite a story. Scary! Glad to hear you snapped yourself out of that downard spiral! Congrats on all the improvements in your life. You deserve the good news!

Hello SocialButterfly, That was quite a poignant post. Probably the mocking of other children is the result of many people having poor self images. It sounds like you've already battled the worst of your demons and have come out victorious. No need to worry about your current dilemna any. Its extremely common for people to gain weight when they marry. Usually its just because you're very comfortable with your current spouse and are enjoying the good things in life, one of which is tasty, fattening food :) Just try to put the curb on the weight gain and see if you can start inching back down. Start with small changes and see if you can make them over time. Everything worth having is worth waiting for. Welcome aboard and thanks for the story, BigAl

:D Thanks Guys, Yeah It was weird meeting my husband online. I met him in an Australian room called Holden Vs Ford and we just started chatting, when we realised we went to school together, it was even better. I remembered him from highschool too and remembered liking him but I was too shy and he was very quiet too. Our first phone call went for three hours and our first date went for eight, it started with a few drinks at a local tavern, a movie at the cinema's then a nice meal. We didn't want to leave each other so we went down the beach and talked till three in the morning. He called me back the next day, after six months we were engaged and six months later Married, he's a wonderful; guy....I never thought I'd find someone like him. The funny thing is, not long after I first met him, some girl who knew about my past (who also happened to be his ex) told him I used to be a junkie. I thought it was gonna be over but he surprised me by telling me it didn't matter lol. The night he found out (I was crying heaps) he invited me back to his house and cooked me a dinner, we ate it by candle light, then he played stairway to heavin on his guitar for me. :oops: So yeah, I guess I have been lucky. Damn I hated her for telling him that but I guess it doesn't matter co's he married me :) He's been supportive with my weight loss too and often tells me no if I try to eat something not on my diet. Ive lost another kilo, so now Ive lost five all up. Good luck to everyone else trying to lose weight :)