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:oops: Okay, I been successful before in weight loss, but what if that's gone now? I can't get this thing started, nevermind keep it going! I'm scared, and I know how stupid that must seem, but it's the truth. What if I never lose the weight? Will I spend the rest of my life regretting my own failures? Is that my fate? :( I've made a LOT of mistakes in my lifetime - and I know a lot of you would say that 24 isn't a long lifetime, but you'd be surprised how many times a person can manage to screw up in such a time. Just this once, I want to prove that I'm not the screw-up I feel I am! I want NOT to quit, but if I can't get started up again, then how can I finish what I started? :oops: Oh my goodness, I sound like a whining, pathetic child. . . courage, so fleeting. Stress, not so fleeting. Maybe I need to give myself a good kick in the ass or something. Or maybe I should really kick off this "diet"/new life - with a two day fast. Because if I'm too scared to get on the scale then I definitely can't figure out what's happening. I know what this is :roll: this is a period thing. I hope - it's got to be screwing me up. Okay, I'm done venting - I appologize now for being a moron, but I had to get that out.

What do you mean you haven't started? You're here aren't you? Well, then, that's what I thought :D Maybe you need to make a list of why losing this weight is important to you. If you make a list, you will find that things seem more real. Writing something down always finalizes it for me. On my bathroom mirror, I have my goal taped on a 3X5 card in red pen with green highlighting where I really want to see. It says: "I WILL be a size 18 by Christmas. I am tired of not feeling as pretty on the outside as I do on the inside. I WILL not fail at this, and I WILL do it while being true to my body." Every day I have to look at this. And any guests I have over see it to. I'm embarassed by it because who wants to have people look at this every time they wash their hands, but it works. Especially when you are drinking so much water and have to be in there all the time :D YOU CAN DO THIS!

I have two "diet books"! One that has all my weigh in's (self done) since I began this the first time and shows all those accomplishments, but lately all it shows is failure and absence. Then I have my "inspiration" book - where I write down everything that makes this even a little easier. I try to keep that one close by.

Toss out your "failure" book. No reason to keep something like this around. If you focus on failing, you're setting yourself up to do just that. Buy a new book to document your a winning (not whining :D ) attitude. Nothing in life worth having is an easy road. Find a picture of yourself at a weight that you were comfortable with and keep it in within an eyeshot. Focus on being that "person" again.. :D